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Faith and Fear in Flushing made its debut on Feb. 16, 2005, the brainchild of two longtime friends and lifelong Met fans.

Greg Prince discovered the Mets when he was 6, during the magical summer of 1969. He is a Long Island-based writer, editor and communications consultant. Contact him here.

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Juan Soto is a New York Met

I decided to keep a new list for myself this winter, that of offseason additions. Every time the Mets make a move, no matter how minor, I open a Word file and type in the player’s name and his position; I also add his birth info to the conditional section of my all-time roster so if/when player sees action in a Mets uniform, I won’t have to look up any vital stats. I can’t say it’s a time-saving device as much as it’s a way for me to stay engaged with the inevitable personnel shuffle each winter brings. Every February, I find myself mildly flummoxed by various new faces, thus I figure by getting an early jump on these guys’ basic identities, they won’t seem like total strangers to me in St. Lucie, let alone should they make the team come late March.

I’ve added the names in chronological order of acquisition. Names like Chris Devenski and Dylan Covey and Kevin Herget, to name the first three. No, I’d never heard of them, either (they’re righthanded pitchers). Within a couple of weeks, I was decently familiar with some of the talent procured by David Stearns. I surely recognized the outfielder Jose Siri and the first baseman Joey Meneses. Jakson Reetz is a catcher whose spelling rang a bell. Reliever Genesis Cabrera isn’t pronounced like he’s spelled, not to those of us who first acquainted ourselves with Phil Collins in his pre-solo days. Of course Luis Severino replacement Frankie Montas was a name that didn’t need much introduction. Clay Holmes, neither, even if he’s going to have to say hello to the first inning for the first time in a while.

I have twenty names in all on the list so far. The three most recently entered are Edward Olivares, Oliver Ortega and Juan Soto. Entering Olivares, an outfielder, and Ortega, another righty pitcher, was business as usual. When I had reason to type “Juan Soto” on a list of Mets is when I nearly plotzed from realizing Juan Soto can be inserted within a list of Mets and it’s not a typo.

Juan Soto is a New York Met. I wasn’t counting on that. I wasn’t counting against it. I pledged to myself I wouldn’t allow my happiness to hinge on a young millionaire’s thought processes regarding how he was going to be come a slightly older multimillionaire many, many times over. I sure wasn’t against the Mets going after Juan Soto. But I was sure I wasn’t going to let Juan Soto not becoming a Met ruin my state of mind. Soto to the Mets? Great! Soto not to the Mets? Life goes on.

Now we get the best of all worlds, as can be gauged from the second week of December: life goes on with Soto on the Mets. That’s a life I’m willing to try.

¡Bienvenido, Juan! Greeting the newest superestrella de Los Mets with open arms.

The old adage that “it’s not my money” is why I’m not worried about the staggering numbers that it took to get this deal done: $765 million across 15 years, with allowances for optouts and elevator clauses. Kid’s here a while, at least five seasons. Still a kid at 26. As good a hitter and on-base machine as there is. And he’s on the Mets, with Francisco Lindor and Mark Vientos.

Life goes on and gets better, Metwise. It’s surely got a solid baseline. I don’t know what the rotation will look like. We wouldn’t know that as of the second week of December no matter what Soto decided. I don’t know if our homegrown slugging first baseman will be back. I can’t imagine Pete Alonso won’t get an offer from Steve Cohen that would satisfy a regular person. The Polar Bear might have his own ideas. We’ll see.

We’d see, anyway. We need a fully stocked team and then we need that team to go out and contest all its games, succeeding in enough of them to qualify for another postseason, and in that postseason, succeed some more. Baseball basics right there. Securing the services of Juan Soto isn’t the end of what needs to be done to spark joy.

But, boy oh boy, does it ever start the fire.

The pundit talk in the wake of the news that Juan Soto is a Met (say that three times fast; then three times slow; then as many times as you like at any pace you choose) centered on what it means that the Mets plucked away a player who had been a Yankee, and who the Yankees were intent on keeping. If the Mets could outbid, outcharm, outswag the Yankees, the coalescing conventional wisdom seemed to suggest, everything forever assumed about how baseball works in New York is no longer automatically operative. The ghost of George Steinbrenner no longer wins every battle just by blustering “boo.”

I should be extra delighted that we scored one in the offseason edition of the Subway Series, and I suppose I am, but to be over the moon about that aspect of Juan Soto becoming a New York Met would indicate I believe it’s foreordained that the Yankees maintain an eternal edge in every significant baseball category, save heartbreak. I never have. I know recent decades indicate otherwise, but I have a functioning memory. I remember New York in 1969 and the first half of the 1970s. I remember when worms turned in the mid-1980s and stayed turned until the early 1990s. Though the leagues have been redesigned to be barely distinguishable from one another, I have always clung to the founding principle of the New York Mets — that what at heart was a National League town required a National League team to make itself whole. That DNA never fully dissipates. When we went to the World Series in 2015, the atmosphere around the region harked back. For a couple of weeks this October, I could honestly sense a rumbling that whispered plates were shifting, if just a smidge, to where they belong.

Nevertheless, I recognize the Mets’ failure to fully re-establish themselves as what they were in their most glorious days and the toll it took in the market. We had ownership that got in its own way too often, to put it kindly. We came up short in potentially defining moments. Hearts and minds were there for the capture, and we let them go. I walked along Main St. from the subway station to the hotel where QBC was taking place Saturday — downtown Flushing, for goodness sake — and I spotted I think four Yankees caps. Probably another couple on the 7 and LIRR coming and going. Par for the course most anywhere I’ve been in the Metropolitan Area since let’s say 1996. I didn’t doubt that those caps I saw Saturday were fashion accessories more than they were symbols of unshakable baseball allegiance, but I also knew that the logical alternative to a Yankees cap in New York has not, in the past thirty years, been what you’d call fashionable outside our diehard circles.

And maybe I don’t care about such trends as much as I do who’s gonna fill out the infield and who’s gonna set up Diaz. But I’d sure like to see a few more Mets caps worn on December mornings by people who don’t quite know why they’re wearing them, yet wouldn’t think of leaving their home without one on their head. My long-term goals for this franchise have been 1) win consistently, so reaching October isn’t a novelty; and 2) kill the “little brother” narrative that didn’t exist as a staple of the New York baseball dialogue until the Mets were in their thirties. The first part, with the owner we’ve got and the front office we’ve got and the playoff structure that exists, seems within reach. The second, I figure, will follow.

Luring Juan Soto with ample Cohen currency is part of that. But so was trading for and then signing Lindor long-term. And keeping Diaz. And keeping Nimmo. And cycling out Scherzer and Verlander as fast as they were reeled in once it became apparent their continued presence wasn’t advancing the cause. The cause was getting good and staying good. We got to this offseason good. We got better Sunday night. We signed Soto. He’s a Met. He wouldn’t be on my list if he wasn’t.

It’s sinking in. I’m still plotzing, but no worries. It’s the best plotzing possible.

Right Fielders on Our Minds

Remove some obstacles — like a fence; the Payson Club; construction on the other side of Seaver Way; the Van Wyck; and a creek also identified as a river — and theoretically you could make a direct beeline from right field at Citi Field to Four Points by Sheraton Flushing, the fancy corporate name for the hotel where Queens Baseball Convention set up camp on Saturday. It’s just a long fly ball away from our ballpark, provided the long fly ball was pulled by a lefty slugger.

The Sheraton is fairly convenient to the last stop on the 7 line, Flushing-Main Street, one stop beyond where I usually detrain, ergo I don’t mind the schlep it takes me to get there every December. The hotel is a ten-minute walk north on Main Street. You cross Northern Blvd., turn right, make your first left, and, provided you don’t walk into the stationary half of a sliding glass door (which a sleepy person might have come awfully close to doing, ahem), you’re an elevator ride away from QBC.

Once you’re at QBC, you’re in baseball again. Never mind that it’s December. Never mind that it’s freezing outside, the temperature unhelped by any winds whipping off the Flushing River/Flushing Creek. You’re inside now, surrounded by baseball fans and baseball warmth. Mets fans. Mets warmth. QBC has materialized most every winter since the one leading into the 2014 season to center a hot stove for our collective benefit. Warm your hands and fill the air with temperate takes.

Many of us who populated the second floor ballroom and associated spaces were in a right field state of mind Saturday on account of two right fielders, even though none of QBC’s four featured guests — Turk Wendell, Gregg Jefferies, Ray Knight and Jose Reyes — inhabited right field as Mets. I didn’t say we weren’t versatile. We could think about relievers and infielders, too. It’s a long winter. Baseball has lots of positions.

But right field, somewhere out the Sheraton window, entered our thoughts because of two right fielders who didn’t join the QBC fun. Juan Soto might someday be a special guest at a Mets fanfest like this. Or he might be a dim memory from that offseason when our owner made a very generous offer that Soto the intensely sought free agent spurned. On Saturday we didn’t know whose offer Soto wouldn’t refuse. We wanted him to accept Steve Cohen’s. It might have come up in conversation once or two-thousand times.

The other right fielder we would have loved to have seen has also never played a home game at Citi Field, but we did know him at Shea Stadium and have kept up with him through a lot of years since. Art Shamsky was the recipient of the 2024 Gil Hodges Unforgettable Fire Award. I was the presenter, filling the role I’ve been assigned since QBC began more than a decade ago. It’s an annual thrill for me to get to stand before a roomful of Mets fans and put somebody’s Met life and career in a bit of historical perspective. It fills me with Met pride to be able to invoke Gil Hodges and connect his too brief but forever impactful Met experience to those individuals QBC has opted to honor.

Art couldn’t join us on Saturday because you know how it is with New Yorkers in winter. Quite a few flee to Florida to escape our persistent chill. Not an unwise move, but we missed Art. I still gave the presentation and was fortunate that one of Art’s several co-authors — my compadre Matthew Silverman, who’s been working with Art on the forthcoming Mets Stories I Only Tell My Friends — was on-site to accept. I hope the applause the crowd gave Mr. Shamsky echoed south.

While we wait to hear whether Juan Soto will be roaming right field at Citi, I thought you might enjoy reading what I shared at QBC about the man who gave us true quality time out there at Shea between 1968 and 1971…especially in 1969. Art Shamsky was a fine player as a Met, and has been an even finer tender of the Met flame.

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I’m here to present the Gil Hodges Unforgettable Fire Award, an honor the Queens Baseball Convention conceived at its founding because we thought Gil Hodges’s contributions to the New York Mets and to baseball were too significant to EVER forget. True Mets fans never would, and now the rest of baseball need only visit Cooperstown or simply look at a list of Hall of Famers in order to be reminded of Gil’s greatness.

I couldn’t help but think of Gil’s finest work this past October. If you’re a Mets fan and it’s October, of course you’re going to think about 1969 — this October in particular, when the 2024 Mets pulled off a mini-miracle of their own. They didn’t go all the way, but they did overcome a world of doubters, they never showed any sign of giving up, and they became only the fifth team in franchise history to win a pair of postseason series. The first was 1969.

The other reason I thought about the 1969 Mets in October of 2024 was when the Mets invited back distinguished alumni to throw out and catch ceremonial first pitches before their five postseason home games, we had the chance to stand and applaud Mets from 2015, 2000, 1986…but not 1969. I don’t think there was anything nefarious about the omission, and for all I know, plans were being made to reach further back in time had the 2024 Mets made the World Series. Mostly, though, I figured it was just a matter of time marching on.

For those of us lucky enough to have experienced 1969 as Mets fans in the moment, we do the math and realize we’re now 55 years past that most Amazin’ of seasons. You then grasp how many 1969 Mets are no longer with us — including four to whom we’ve said goodbye this year: Buddy Harrelson, Jim McAndrew, Jerry Grote and Eddie Kranepool — and that those who are around maybe aren’t able to be around as much as they used to be.

For decades, no big Met occasion, like a postseason first pitch, happened without some direct participation of 1969 Mets. If you grew up in the era between 1969 and 1986 and tuned into a Mets game, you probably didn’t go a week without hearing about our first world champions. It came up reflexively between pitches. It was the best topic there ever was to revisit, so why wouldn’t the Mets revisit it every chance there was?

It might have been easy to take the presence of the 1969 Mets as so-called Old Timers for granted in those years. We’d hear about their exploits regularly and we’d see them pass through Shea no less than annually. I think we’re coming to a point when we understand how precious those experiences are becoming. Again, it’s not as if we as Mets fans will ever forget these miracle workers. It’s just that their collective profile is inevitably lowered, or perhaps obscured, by the passage of time and all that occurs in the span of 55 years going on forever.

That is why what Art Shamsky has been doing all these years means so much. That is why we’re acknowledging what Art Shamsky has been doing all these years with the 2024 Gil Hodges Unforgettable Fire Award. Talk about keeping a torch lighted. Art has been front and center for decades as what the Sports Illustrated writer Michael Bamberger in 2009 called the unofficial class secretary of the 1969 Mets. He’d shaped the multiple celebrations surrounding their 25th anniversary in 1994. He rode out on a cart with Buddy Harrelson, the last time Buddy was able to make a personal appearance, at the 50th anniversary, in 2019, an expression of friendship that showed the Citi Field crowd how tightly 1969 binds those who made it memorable. He co-wrote two books capturing his and his teammates’ memories of a special time in New York, the second of them, After the Miracle, a poignant recounting of not only 1969 but his efforts to bring a cadre of Mets to California to essentially say goodbye to Tom Seaver in 2017.

Certainly no player who knew what Gil Hodges was all about spoke more consistently or eloquently on Gil’s behalf prior to Gil’s induction into the Hall in 2022 than Art Shamsky did. Art became a Met in 1968, the first year Gil managed in New York. “The more the season progressed, the more the players knew who was in charge,” Art wrote in his first book, The Magnificent Seasons. Those Mets learned what Art termed “the Gil Hodges way of doing things”: mainly being professional on and off the field. The Gil Hodges way began sinking in, and it was in place in 1969, as Gil gained the trust of a clubhouse that resisted questioning the manager’s judgment, even if that meant less playing time for any individual.

That included Art, who split time in right field with Ron Swoboda. Art dominated the NLCS against Atlanta, Rocky was a hero in the World Series against Baltimore. It was a pattern that ran through each of Gil’s platoons. Under Gil Hodges, EVERY player made the Mets champions. And none of the players ever forgot Gil’s influence, certainly not Art, who concluded in After the Miracle that when Gil was hired, “the Mets had found themselves a leader of men.”

We at QBC certainly don’t want to forget Art Shamsky, an excellent hitter across nine years in the majors; an able defender in the outfield and at first base; a thoughtful storyteller in myriad media since hanging up his spikes; and, we take great pride in noting, a two-time attendee without billing of this event. He came our first year to support Gil Hodges Jr. when Gil Jr. accepted this award on behalf of his late father, and he returned a few years later to himself accept on behalf of Seaver, and then made sure to deliver the hardware to Tom personally when he, Buddy, Rocky and Jerry Koosman made that trip to Napa Valley. “Gil,” Art wrote in After the Miracle, “always held a special place in Seaver’s heart, and I knew the honor would mean a lot to him.”

Well, Art Shamsky holds a special place in the heart of the Queens Baseball Convention, and it is our honor to present this year’s Gil Hodges Unforgettable Fire Award to him.

As it happens, Art is in Florida right now — who can blame him in this weather? — but we will make sure he gets his award. We are thankful for his efforts on behalf of generations of Mets fans, on behalf of the legacy of Gil Hodges, and for all he’s meant in keeping the fire burning for the 1969 world champions. That ballclub couldn’t have elected itself a better unofficial class secretary.

Hold On for One More Year

Maybe Billy Joel’s Brenda and Eddie could never go back to the green, but I have no compunction about returning to scenes from my own fields of reality. Therefore, I welcome you anew to MY FAVORITE SEASONS, FROM LEAST FAVORITE TO MOST FAVORITE, 1969-PRESENT, a series counting down just what the title implies. I started this endeavor at the very end of calendar year 2023; continued it for the balance of what remained of the last offseason; took it into Spring Training; and then paused it when the PRESENT encroached on my ruminations.

The PRESENT, in the form of 2024’s Met campaign, carried the potential to complicate matters in terms of my rankings. I had a very definite 55-through-1 order I was working my way up when I stopped at No. 12 in late March to concentrate on Opening Day and the days to come. No biggie, I figured as 2024 got going, because it didn’t appear any great personal revelations would sprout as a result of what the 2024 Mets were up or, more likely, down to. I’d get back to my rock-solid list after the regular season and smush the most recent edition wherever it fit, presumably somewhere in Also Ran Land, hopefully not compelling me to messily rearrange my bottom rung. I figured the season then in progress would rate not much more than a footnote to this entire endeavor.

But then, OMG, 2024 became TWENTY TWENTY-FOUR and may have upended some calculations. Stimulating to live through. Discombobulating to reflect upon in FAVORITE SEASONS context. So here’s my plan: proceed from No. 11 forward as anticipated, then circle back to figure out where the last Met season — a Met season like no other — fits into my scheme of things.

That bit of housekeeping attended to, I bring you below another Met season that was also like no other. That’s a trick designation, because all Met seasons are unique, surface similarities notwithstanding. How they live on in the consciousness of a particular fan is where the singularity comes to play.

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11. 1990
April has been cited traditionally in baseball circles as a month when you shouldn’t necessarily believe your eyes, usually as it pertains to rookies who are the personification of a small sample size. The same applies to teams who stumble or surge out of the gate. If you want to sound sophisticated, say something like, “Let’s see where they are in June.” By June, the thinking goes, you know what you’re looking at.

Come June of one particular year, I saw what I wanted to see, maybe needed to see. Give me a little leeway with the calendar (lop a few days off the front of June, annex a couple of scoops of July), and in the course of my Met-loving existence, I can declare it a month for the ages in what turned out to be the year of a lifetime.

One of them, anyway.

If the assignment is to illustrate myself being a Mets fan at any time, in any place when and where I’ve been a Mets fan, I could pick a lot of times and a lot of places, as could you. But I couldn’t go wrong with a self-image that warms me all over.

It’s late June 1990. It’s morning. It’s sunny. It’s hot. It’s after I drop my fiancée off at the train station, before I head home to get myself ready for work. It’s imperative that I stop for the papers. The Mets have won last night. The Mets have been winning every night. The Mets are on what will become an eleven-game winning streak. I park on our town’s main drag in a spot that I infer isn’t quite legal, but I’m only gonna be a minute. I run into the let’s call it candy store, though maybe it’s a cigar store or for that matter a luncheonette. I never stick around more than the length of the transaction, scooping up the News, the Post, Newsday, maybe the National and paying. Back in the car, back to our apartment, up to the kitchen table for a few minutes of soaking in another Mets win.

So much of what it was like to be me at a given moment crammed into one paragraph.

It’s late June… My mother died on June 17, almost two years after her chronically bad back acted up beyond the usual discomfort and indicated something worse was happening. It was cancer. The end was in sight by February 1990. That the end was a blessing in its way didn’t make it any less of an end. Her funeral was on June 19. Those she was survived by — her husband, her children, their significant others — sat shiva for visitors that night and two more. I went back to work before the week was out. Sitting around being sad wasn’t accomplishing anything. “Things’ll go your way,” Wilson Phillips advised me as I pulled into my company’s parking lot, “if you hold on for one more day.”

I drop my fiancée off at the train station… I slipped a ring on my girlfriend’s finger the previous September. Then she slipped back to college for the completion of one more academic year. Those long months wound down just before April became May. I flew down to Florida, helped pack her up, watched her graduate, and flew her to our new home. She’d never seen it before and neither of us had ever spent a night there. Yet she was all in. Within a matter of weeks, she’s lined up job interviews. She nails one by mid-June. They ask her if the death of her fiancé’s mother means she’ll need more time before starting. I tell her the active mourning period will expire conveniently. Her first day as a case manager tending to an elderly population on Manhattan’s Upper East Side is June 25. I drop her off for the LIRR, something she’s ridden before, but not to work. Just like that, barely two months removed from student life more than a thousand miles away, my intended is a daily commuter in the Greater New York Metropolitan Area. She’s 22.

Get myself ready for work. I’m 27. I kind of futzed around when I was 22, 23. The Mets were winning. I barely noticed anything else. At 24, I met Stephanie. Engagement was made official the September I was 26, when I’d been holding my first true full-time job for about six months. I needed to do something to afford a (humble) ring let alone that (humble) apartment that would set the stage for our life together. By June of 1990, it’s a comfortable enough situation careeerwise. Probably too comfortable. I’d begin to get a little sick of what I was doing — writing and editing for a trade magazine on Long Island — fairly soon, but not sick enough to do anything about it. Roughly every two years I’d have had enough, then have some more. Comfortable can be comforting when things around you are changing fast. My mother is gone. My fiancée is here. We’re living in this new place, which would require several rounds of moving. The people at work are very understanding when I need a few extra days in the first half of 1990 to take care of personal business. Nobody says anything if I show up at whatever time I do because I needed a few extra minutes to read the papers each morning.

The papers… What else was I going to read if I wanted to dive deep into what was going on with the Mets in June of 1990? Later in the year, Goodfellas came out and the character I related to most was Jimmy Two Times, the wise guy who said everything twice. He was the one who said he was gonna go get the papers, get the papers. That was me, times two. Get the News. Get the Post. Get Newsday. Get the National, even. Tabloid sports section heaven. The National, new in 1990 (and gone by 1991), was nothing but a sports section. They were all essential when the Mets were in season. How else would I know what One Met Said when the Mets were losing? How else would I get a feel for what was going right when the Mets were winning? Looking at your phone in those days meant staring at it waiting for it to ring, and it’s not like Bob Klapisch was calling you personally.

Eleven-game winning streak… Holy crap, the Mets were literally unbeatable. It wasn’t the first time the franchise had gone that long impervious to defeat; eleven was the record set when the 1969 Mets (rising from 18-23 to 29-23) awoke to the possibility that their perpetual lot wasn’t to be a punch line or punching bag, and it was tied in promising 1972 (surging from 14-7 to 25-7) and again in powerful 1986 (shaking off 2-3 to all but clinch the division at 13-3 before May arrived). But the timing here was most impeccable. The 1990 Mets had stumbled through April and May, unbecoming of their perennial contender status. At 20-22, they cost Davey Johnson, their most successful manager ever, his job. They bottomed out at 21-26. Longtime aide Buddy Harrelson, eternally a Met, except when he was passing through the Phillie and Ranger clubhouses — and maybe even then — was now steering the ship, but the early returns weren’t indicating smooth sailing was ahead.

Then…ahoy, Metsies! On June 5 at Shea, Kevin McReynolds ties the Expos in the eighth with a two-run homer, and come the eleventh, it’s benchwarmer Tom O’Malley taking Dale Mohorcic deep to win the game and light a fuse. The Mets, stuck in fourth 8½ back, go on a 9-3 roll. The offense explodes, especially in Chicago, where we win 19-8, then 15-10, then 9-6. The wind really knew how to blow out in those days.

Somehow winning nine of twelve is tantamount to a throat-clearing exercise. In full voice, the 30-29 Mets proceed to win eleven in a row and become the 41-29 Mets. It begins in Pittsburgh, which is important, since they’ve assumed control of first place and therefore require catching, and it begins on June 17, which is important to me, because that’s the day my mother died. The game was over before she breathed her last. Doc went seven, struck out eight and pulled the Mets to within six. The News made much of the Three Rivers speed gun saying Doc’s fastball touched 100 MPH, a Gooden first. Doc, along with Keith, ranked as my mother’s favorite Met. She didn’t make lists like I did, but I could tell. Keith had moved on to Cleveland. Doc was still here for us, firing faster fastballs than ever, and evening his record at 5-5.

Then ten more Met wins in a row. Five at home, the spine-tingliest among them secured on a Sunday afternoon when Tim Teufel pinch-singled in the tying and winning runs in the bottom of the ninth off Roger McDowell. Three in St. Louis, including another eleven-inning thriller in the middle of the s et (John Franco blows the lead in the ninth by allowing a leadoff homer to rookie catcher Todd Zeile, but HoJo comes through with a two-out, two run double to make the streak eight straight). Then back to Shea to take one on a Thursday night from supposedly unstoppable Cincy — they were going wire to wire in the West — and then another on Friday night. Bobby Ojeda scattered ten hits to secure that one, the eleventh consecutive New York victory. It vaulted us three percentage points ahead of the Pirates. Pittsburgh’s one ahead in the win column, but we’re one ahead in the loss column, because we have stopped losing.

And doesn’t the East know it?

METS VS THE DIVISION, June 5, 1990 – June 27, 1990
vs Montreal 2-0
vs Pittsburgh 5-2
vs Chicago 3-1
vs St. Louis 5-0
vs Philadelphia 3-0

Over a 32-game span that also incorporates interactions with the Reds (4-1), the Astros (2-0) and the Braves (3-1), we go 27-5. None of those five losses are back-to-back. It remains the longest stretch in Mets history to encompass only five losses. The Mets were never better over a 32-game span than they were between June 5 and July 12 of 1990. Baseball success isn’t usually measured by 32-game spans, but this one deserves its props. In the equivalent of one-fifth of a season, the Mets play at an .844 pace. That’s a 137-25 record extrapolated over 162 games.

You can extrapolate to your heart’s content, but what happens on the field and how it lands in the actual standings is what counts, and that’s where 1990 drifts off toward the rocks again. It was a massive haul to rise to a virtual tie for first place as June was becoming July. So many Mets were so incredible for more than a month. Gooden kept winning. Frankie “Sweet Music” Viola kept winning. They were backed up by Coney (when he wasn’t arguing with umps while runners crossed plates) and El Sid. Bobby O was still capable of pitching a club into first place. Ron Darling was present as a reluctant recast swingman, though as a broadcaster he seems to prefer to forget he was ever a Met in the 1990s. I missed Randy Myers, who was Nasty in Cincinnati, but John Franco, for whom Randall K was traded the prior December, was born to be a Met, and now he finally was. Between Frankie and Johnny, the postgame interviews never sounded so authentically New York.

Daryl Boston, who started the year on the White Sox, and Mark Carreon, who started the year on the bench, shared center to exquisite effect. Jefferies, HoJo, K-Mac, Mackey the Slasher, Dave Magadan who made Mike Marshall superfluous, and the crown jewel of the operation Strawberry combined to slug like crazy. Darryl, eight seasons into a career that had been outstanding but never quite brilliant enough to satisfy us fully, was, at last, everything we’d dreamed he’d be when he was drafted out of Crenshaw High a decade before. Made the cover of Sports Illustrated and marked the occasion by banging one off the Shea scoreboard (Boston went nearly as deep in the same inning, two months after Newhart — featuring two brothers named Da(r)ryl — aired its finale).

Amid this 32-game stretch of 27-5, Strawberry’s individual offense was nearly as unbeatable: 14 homers, 36 ribbies and a .377 average. His OPS, whatever that was in pre-analytics 1990, measured 1.248. Straw was also rounding into form just in time for free agency. Cashen wouldn’t let him go, right? Hmm…Cashen let Davey go, and Davey was the winningest manager we’d ever had, just like Darryl already held the Met career record for home runs. Davey didn’t deserve canning, but you couldn’t complain about a thing Buddy was doing at the helm. He was, apparently, just what these Mets needed.

And these Mets were, apparently, just what I needed. In the nautical terms I’m suddenly fond of, they kept me anchored. So much transition swirling around me in so-called real life, yet here were the Mets, just as much a part of my existence as ever. There for me in a summer of loss, a summer of discovery, a summer of settling in, a summer of absorbing every word and statistic the papers printed about my Mets. Not only my Mets in name and logo, but my Mets who were permanently (since 1984, at least) competing for a championship. Finished first twice in the previous six seasons. Fought for first four other times, finishing second but knowing we should have been first. We were fighting to get where we belonged again. Playing badly enough in April and May to get their skipper tossed overboard was the aberration. Full speed ahead was more like it.

It’s what the Mets had been like every season since they straightened themselves out. Since Doc. Since Darryl. No more Keith or Gary (or Mookie or Lenny or Wally, either), but wasn’t this how it was supposed to work? I grew into new circumstances as the ’80s became the ’90s. So did the Mets. Doc and Darryl were veterans. Other youngsters had been cultivated in their wake as the 1980s continued. Like Cone, who zipped from representing pitching inventory in ’87 to winning twenty games in ’88. Like Elster, who set an errorless streak record for shortstops in ’89. Like Magadan, whose ascent to the everyday lineup revealed a .328 hitter who was just waiting for his opportunity. Like Jefferies, the perceived problem child who had no problem when it came to doubling (he would total a league-leading 40 two-baggers by season’s end). They were all younger than thirty. They were all in or approaching their prime. The Mets as a year-in, year-out factor were built to last. Competitive sustainability that transcended players aging out or passing their peak was the beau ideal of baseball, and here it was, coming to fruition in Flushing four years after 1986.

But the .844 pace was unsustainable. Come across any 137-25 teams in your travels lately? More concerning in the moment was the Pirates were proving naggingly indefatigable. Our .003 lead on June 29 — I can still see the standings in our neighborhood Friendly’s house copy of Newsday I couldn’t take my eyes off between patty melt bites — didn’t serve as a launching point to blow away our competition. Our winning streak ended, but our general roll extended: five more in a row, seven out of eight, including the opener of a twi-nighter at Riverfront that got us to 48-31 directly after the All-Star break. But we dropped the nightcap, and the Pirates persevered past the Padres in fifteen. As of the close of business on July 12, we sat a game behind the Buccos. We’d gone 27-5, yet it didn’t earn us as much as a share of first place. We’d made up an ocean’s worth of ground since Tom O’Malley struck lightning, but not enough to compensate for the inevitable market correction.

Friday the 13th brought a second consecutive loss for the first time in seven weeks. The Mets dropped three of four in Cincinnati, then two of three in Houston. Winning returned to habitual if not constant (including a night at the Vet when a 10-3 laugher became a 10-9 nailbiter of a damn thing), and the Mets passed the Pirates for a few days here, a few days there, but there was no shaking the newest NL East nemesis. Slumps and injuries crept back in the picture. Mackey Sasser, who was always more about hitting than catching (or throwing) was never the same after getting bowled over at the plate in Atlanta in early July. Kevin Elster went out for the season in early August with a torn labrum in his right shoulder. There went dependable defense up the middle.

Reinforcements shuttled in. Kelvin Torve was promoted in August and scalded the ball, wearing No. 24 until it was rightly judged a sacrilege; he was issued a less fraught set of digits. The postseason-eligibility trade deadline unveiled a pinch-hitter famous for delivering with the bases loaded, Pat Tabler, born too late to take advantage of any Golden At-Bat innovations; a new defensive specialist catcher, Charlie O’Brien (we went through seven backstops in 1990, including 1970s survivor Alex Treviño and MLBer for a day Dave Liddell); and a new middle infielder, Tommy Herr, whose participation on the wrong side of the Met-Cardinal wars of the ’80s we were willing to overlook. The answer to both Darling and Ojeda not pitching to their respective previous forms as starters was divined in the Triple-A personage of Julio Valera.

When you wish upon an unproven starter, dreams can sometimes come true. On September 1, a Saturday afternoon affair telecast to the nation by CBS, it all clicked. O’Brien caught Valera for six solid innings. Herr homered. Ojeda and Darling served as effective setup men for Franco, no matter that neither man fancied himself a reliever. Bobby O wasn’t happy: “I will do the best I can to keep my mouth shut.” Ronnie D wasn’t happy: “I am shocked. I am hurt. I never expected this.” Ultimately, Julio V wouldn’t delight Mets fans (he’d make two more starts, neither successful), but the outcome in the short term was unquestionably happy: the Mets beat the Giants, 6-5. Combined with the Pirates’ 2-1 loss in ten at Houston that night, the Mets leapfrogged into first place, perfectly positioned for the stretch drive ahead.

Nineteen Ninety marked the seventh consecutive year when September dawned and the Mets were no less than in it. You know…it. First place or a conceivably close second. Finish first, go to the playoffs. Finish second, go home. Finishing first was immensely preferable. Finish second, it was still quite a year, probably. But finish first, OK? Being in it is great. Being around to win it in October is the idea. I thought we’d win the NL East at the outset of September 1990. That may have been June and the first part of July talking, but I also thought we’d win the NL East at the outset of Septembers 1984, 1985, 1987 and 1989. I didn’t have to do much thinking on the subject entering September 1988 or any at all of this nature in the summer leading to September 1986. We’d had two divisions under lock and key; four going on five had been up for grabs. We’d never grabbed any of those we didn’t fully control in this era. September 1990 would have been a good time to start.

The Tommy Herr/Charlie O’Brien/Julio Valera/Pat Tabler-enhanced Mets spent three days in first place, the last three days any Mets team would spend in first place in September until the beginning of September 2000. Three golden days before the month gathered tarnish. The club didn’t exactly fall apart. There was no Terry Pendleton lurking to craft undying narratives. There were some rough losses in the moment — only true heads cringe at the invocation of Brian Barnes and Chris Nabholz — but little that echoes dissonantly down the corridors of time. The assorted letdowns of 1990 did not constitute a name-brand devastation. Conversely, the intervals when challenges were risen to stirringly have also faded from collective memory. In the middle of the Mets not necessarily getting done all that needed to get done, they did sweep a pair from the Pirates at Shea that would have fit snugly inside a sequel to A Year to Remember. The stars aligned where and how they’d been aligning since they rose for real in 1984.

Last dance…

September 12: Dave Magadan doubles into the gap to drive home Gregg Jefferies and Keith Miller in the first inning off John Smiley. David Cone makes those two runs stand up for the full nine in a gripping 2-1 decision. These were the Daves we knew. Barry Bonds surely recognized who he just went hitless against in four at-bats: “Cone pitched great, simply great. He’s a great competitor. He never gave and I don’t think he lost any velocity from one to nine.” These were the Mets we knew en masse, beating the Bucs of Bonds and Bonilla and pulling to within 2½ of first place in front of 48,375 paying customers who know a pennant race when they see one.

Last chance…

September 13: Darryl Strawberry is up in the fourth with Tommy Herr on second and Magadan on first. The Pirates are ahead, 2-0. Doug Drabek is on the mound, in search of his twentieth win. He’s not going to get it tonight, not once Darryl takes Doug deep for the three-run bomb that detonates ecstasy among 51,079. “I know Drabek is a good pitcher,” Darryl, who delivered a walkoff blast versus ace Cardinal closer Lee Smith two nights earlier and three other ribbies the night against Smith’s team the before that, says afterwards, “but man, I’m a good hitter right now.” Also a good pitcher in quite a groove is Doc Gooden, shaking off a shaky first and lasting until there were two out in the eighth to earn a 6-3 win. Doc was 3-5 when the Mets seemed to be going nowhere. He’s now 17-6, and the Mets are a game-and-a-half from first. “I pitched some great games in the playoffs in 1986 and in 1988,” Gooden reflects to reporters, “but I did not win those. This is the biggest game I’ve ever won.”

For love…

Seasons can slog too long and eras can endure not long enough. The season that launched the century’s final decade was, per the way we read calendars, not of the ’80s. It’s also not of a piece with the rest of the ’90s. In retrospect, 1990 — a year of personal reset for this Mets fan — was one big Closing Day for the era it wound up concluding. I can’t say I was sure the Mets would prevail in their pursuit of the pennant, but it didn’t cross my mind they wouldn’t. That was what that era was like, never mind all those second-place finishes that stung while they were burrowing under our skin. You didn’t believe in the Mets for golly-gee whiz rationalizations. You believed in the Mets because you believed the Mets were too good to not win.

No Mets fan who took in the depth and breadth of the victories of September 12 and September 13 would have bet against the 82-61 Mets passing the 84-60 Pirates in a matter of days. Except there were only so many days left to 1990, and Bonds was en route to his first MVP and Drabek nearing his only Cy Young, and the Mets, despite their spectacular homestand, had done too much ebbing when not flowing. Being 82-61 on the heels of a four-game winning streak was swell on the surface, but let’s remember they were once 48-31, meaning they had split sixty games from roughly mid-July to mid-September. The rest of the schedule would find momentum peeking in and out of view, only to go into hiding when you thought it was on our side to stay. There’d be games like the one against the Phillies when Tabler batted with the bases loaded and indeed drove in two runs off eventually ageless Terry Mulholland, but not enough coming through in the clutch on either side of the ball in too many other games. The Mets lost nine of sixteen after their sweep of Pittsburgh. They were eliminated while they were losing the last of them. I didn’t know that until I got off a plane in San Francisco — a conference required covering on my part — and raced to a pay phone to call home to get the score. Stephanie reported the result. Not the one I wanted to hear, but nobody I’d have rather heard it from. My fiancée, albeit by osmosis, had just experienced her first pennant race.

It wouldn’t be her last, though it would be for a while.

Darryl Strawberry took his 37 home runs, his 108 runs batted in and his penchant for meeting a moment and left for Los Angeles as a free agent in November. Stephanie broke that to me, too, and delivered the consolatory hug such a bulletin required. Darryl’s departure should have indicated the Met glory days of the 1980s were unconditionally over, but we were used to thinking big, so maybe we could get by without him in 1991. Strawlessly, the Mets hung within wishing distance of the Pirates until August before altogether collapsing. No pennant race in September. No winning record when the season ended in October. A gaudy shakeup in advance of 1992 yielded mainly embarrassment; then 1993 was somehow exponentially worse; and the next few years amounted to marginally effective damage control. The 1990s no longer bore any resemblance to the high-flying decade that preceded it at Shea, nor the year that served as its bittersweet coda.

What came after 1990 might have hit me harder than the Grant’s Tomb epoch that followed “I know, let’s trade Seaver!” because I thought we had absolute awfulness licked once the Doubleday-Wilpon-Cashen era shed its growing pains and put down roots. Seven years of pain, 1977 through 1983, were erased by seven years of plenty, 1984 through 1990, featuring one world championship and very few games when something wasn’t on the line. All good things might have to come to an end, but do they have to be shoved off a cliff? In exploring the Mets portion of David Cone’s career in A Pitcher’s Story, Roger Angell wrote, “Second place is hard country.” Try fifth, à la ’91 and ’92. Try seventh, with the expansion Florida Marlins sitting on your head in ’93. We had no inkling success would ever be out of our grasp again, let alone so soon. We had no idea we wouldn’t win more than we lost as a matter of course. We had no idea finishing a heartbreaking close second, pre-Wild Card, would seem like an accomplishment. From 1991 on and for the balance of the Nineties, such a season loomed as aspirational — an unreachable star beyond our reasonable hopes until handfuls of managers and general managers and loads of players came and went and, suddenly, the ’90s were growing late. I’d keep reading whatever was written about this team as the decade wore on, regardless of the news rarely being encouraging.

I lived in 1990 and rooted in 1990 and loved this season enough during and after 1990 to identify it as a more of a personal favorite than some astounding seasons that have come along since, seasons that continued into postseason, which is the essential goal of every regular season, a destination 1990 never reached. “Favorite” is a funny word here. I can’t say I loved the outcome of 1990 more than I loved some of the seasons lined up behind it in my esteem, but I know 1990 meant too much to me as it unfolded middle out to hold its shortcomings against it. Not winning at the end doesn’t ruin everything if you’re in it for the long haul. Some years I’m in seasons as much for their Junes and Julys as much as I am for their Septembers and Octobers.

That there wasn’t much on which to hang a Mets hat in the protracted aftermath of 1990 makes 1990 stand up and stand out for me perhaps more than a fifth disappointing runner-up finish in seven years should. That it was the year that served as vibrant backbeat to our first summer in our first apartment — my fiancée and me — no doubt boosts it beyond its bottom line of 91-71, four frustrating paces behind Pittsburgh. Stephanie coming to New York was the move of a lifetime. More than Hearn for Cone. More than Allen for Hernandez, even. She embraced the Mets fandom that informed my mornings getting the papers and my nights watching to the last out and then flipping on Mets Extra for Howie Rose’s interpretation of events. She learned to discern my Metsian wails of agony from those indicating mere physical distress. I’d spent the previous six seasons utterly immersed in a ballclub that was always on the edge of greatness — one big pitch or swing would do it, I swore, and sometimes did. As a seventh coalesced, I didn’t know how to not care deeply about the Mets every single day, even with the presence of somebody else in the picture I cared deeply about making me realize I’d be loving two entities this way for as long as I lived. For better or worse, it was part of me, and not once did my future betrothed (we wedded on the second Sunday of November of 1991, the date chosen so as to ensure no anniversaries would conflict with any World Series) take stock of our shared household and act as if my attachment to baseball was something that would look better stashed in a drawer.

Then again, why would I fall in love and live happily ever after with somebody who’d act like that? And why wouldn’t I stick with a team that gave me a June and part of July like 1990’s? C’mon, they went 27-5! Twenty-seven and five! Happy endings are the best, but don’t sleep on elevated middles. They can take you places that now and then last a lifetime.

PREVIOUS ‘MY FAVORITE SEASONS’ INSTALLMENTS
Nos. 55-44: Lousy Seasons, Redeeming Features
Nos. 43-34: Lookin’ for the Lights (That Silver Lining)
Nos. 33-23: In the Middling Years
Nos. 22-21: Affection in Anonymity
No. 20: No Shirt, Sherlock
No. 19: Not So Heavy Next Time
No. 18: Honorably Discharged
No. 17: Taken Down in Paradise City
No. 16: Thin Degree of Separation
No. 15: We Good?
No. 14: This Thing Is On
No. 13: One of Those Teams
No. 12: (Weird) Dream Season

True Value

Lest unanimity get a bad name, let us forget the myopic groupthink that infected 30 members of the Baseball Writers Association of America and let us all instead commit to a Metsiastically agreeable concept:

No Met was more valuable in 2024 than Francisco Lindor.

Perhaps you have an opposing viewpoint. It takes all kinds, one supposes. In this forum, however, we’re not hearing it. Francisco Lindor is clearly Faith and Fear in Flushing’s Richie Ashburn Most Valuable Met. The vote is by acclamation.

It’s the least we can do for our most valuable player, a Met who received 23 second-place and seven third-place votes in the BBWAA National League MVP voting, a robust showing until you remember first place votes were theoretically available to him, and none of the writers thought what Lindor did was worthy of being considered most Most Valuable in the senior circuit.

Shohei Ohtani posted an offensive season for the ages. Hit 54 home runs. Stole 59 bases. Drove in 130 runs. Prevented no runs. Ohtani wasn’t available to pitch, something he did in the course of winning two American League MVPs, which is what made him a legend the likes of which no living fan had ever watched and what made him so attractive for the long term when he reached the free agent market last winter. Recovery from Tommy John surgery meant all we got in his first year in the NL was Ohtani the DH. And what a DH! Those numbers and plenty of others attest to his otherworldly productivity.

Yet he never put on a glove in a game as a Dodger in 2024. Never saw the field when L.A. was on defense except from the dugout. Didn’t contribute whatsoever to half of every game.

Lindor? He went out to shortstop every day until his back wouldn’t allow him, and then worked it into shape to make sure it would. Played the position brilliantly. Ran the infield. Guided his teammates in the midst of patrolling the busiest of positions. And when not doing so, got better and better at the plate as the season went along, leading a team that needed him in every way and delivering in every way until his ninth-inning home run lifted them to the lip of the postseason.

Two different kinds of value between Ohtani and Lindor, to be sure. An absolutely reasonable case to be made for Shohei the hitter who didn’t pitch and didn’t field on his star-studded squad, just as there was an absolutely reasonable case to be made for Francisco the shortstop who hit and did most everything else for a team he practically willed into the playoffs.

Somehow not one of thirty voting BBWAA members found Lindor’s case more compelling than Ohtani’s. Perhaps Ohtani’s stats short-circuited a system that’s traditionally allowed for interpretation that wasn’t 100% digitally driven. Shortstops who fueled their teams, like Barry Larkin and Jimmy Rollins. Gritty, gutty guys who made a tangible difference like Kirk Gibson and Terry Pendleton. Francisco Lindor’s season was the stuff of a classic MVP choice: 33 homers, 91 RBIs, 107 runs scored, a batting average that soared from nowhere (.190) to beyond respectable (.273) once he took over the leadoff spot. The consistent, stellar defense. The well-documented clubhouse leadership. The clutch — yes, clutch — performances every time you turned around every time you needed it.

Yet not one first-place vote for NL MVP. Go figure.

But all the votes for MVM, we figure. All the votes because we remember that Lindor’s back ached mostly from carrying a team that needed to hop on his shoulders as it ascended the Wild Card standings. Francisco didn’t rest until he absolutely had to, and even then it wasn’t rest so much as rehabilitation so he could return to the field and get the Mets where they needed to go. He’d been there for them despite a miserable slump that could have buried a lesser player early. He’d been there for them day-in, day-out, flu-ridden one afternoon when he won them a game in extras. He was there ensuring a summer of climbing didn’t go to waste at the end of August. This was at Arizona, against a primary rival that was poised to oust them from realistic contention. Lindor homered to tie that one, less than 24 hours after a debacle of a Met ending. Francisco got the Mets all even in the sixth with a leadoff homer, changing their trajectory so they could prevail in the ninth and keep going into September. And speaking of September, how about that no-hitter he ended in the ninth inning in Toronto? Another leadoff homer, another altering of direction, another huge win with his signature all over it.

Then he goes down for more than a week; gets back up; gives everything he has on the final scheduled Sunday in Milwaukee from the literal get-go (leads off; walks; steals second; scores two batters later); eventually homers to put a must-win out of reach; and sets the stage for, the more I think about it, the biggest regular-season home run any Met has ever hit. On the Monday that extended the schedule, in the ballpark where no Mets fan could imagine anything turning out for the best, the club put six on the board in the eighth — Francisco was in the middle of that rally — only to drop behind the Braves in the succeeding half-inning. Lindor is due up third in the ninth with the season as on the line as it could be. With one out, Marte singles…and Lindor homers. Like Ohtani, Lindor doesn’t pitch. But I swear the bottom of the ninth, when he reels in a pop fly for the first out and fields the grounder that becomes the third out minutes after that two-run bomb…give him the save, too.

MVP voting doesn’t take into account the postseason. MVM selection takes into account everything. The grand slam to seal the NLDS triumph over the Phillies therefore gets the credit it deserves. So cool, so calm, so Francisco. Bases loaded, one out, Mets down by a run in the sixth and Lindor up. What’s gonna happen? Something Lindor makes happen. It was obvious he’d drive home at least one Met. Four was an ideal total, accented by the way he rounded the bases — head down, no frills. The game wasn’t over yet. The series wasn’t over yet. The goal Lindor had in mind wasn’t yet reached. All business in an OMG frenzy was the way to go.

Anywhere this man went was the way to follow. We follow him to a second consecutive MVM presentation. In grim 2023, Francisco shared the honor. In celebratory 2024, the honor is all his. Also, ours.

FAITH AND FEAR’S PREVIOUS RICHIE ASHBURN MOST VALUABLE METS
2005: Pedro Martinez (original recording)
2005: Pedro Martinez (deluxe reissue)
2006: Carlos Beltran
2007: David Wright
2008: Johan Santana
2009: Pedro Feliciano
2010: R.A. Dickey
2011: Jose Reyes
2012: R.A. Dickey
2013: Daniel Murphy, Dillon Gee and LaTroy Hawkins
2014: Jacob deGrom
2015: Yoenis Cespedes
2016: Asdrubal Cabrera
2017: Jacob deGrom
2018: Jacob deGrom
2019: Pete Alonso
2020: Michael Conforto and Dom Smith (the RichAshes)
2021: Aaron Loup and the One-Third Troupe
2022: Starling Marte
2023: Francisco Lindor and Kodai Senga

Still to come: The Nikon Camera Player of the Year for 2024.

Treat

Elimination Day is a bit like Rosh Hashanah. You never know when exactly it’s going to show up on the calendar, yet it always fits the description of High Holy. This year, Elimination Day — no need to layer it with qualifiers, as there is only one elimination we as a Sheadenfreudic people celebrate perennially and heartily — appeared on Halloween Eve. Perfect timing, given all the sweets within easy reach for those who indulge. Treat yourself to a fun-size bar today. All the bars will be fun this weekend. No Yankee games will be on.

Twenty-six American Leaguers dressed as fundamentally sound baseball players. Their costumes weren’t very convincing. Working the other side of the street, the National League champions pretended they had adequate pitching depth, and here they are, flying all the candy back home.

Congratulations to the Los Angeles Dodgers, a team we might have forgotten to congratulate the last time they completed a series of baseball games. Where were our manners? Not every postseason set-to hits the same. The Dodgers hit plenty all October. We didn’t care for some of it. Personally, I relished the last waves of it.

METS FANS FOR FREDDIE FREEMAN is never going to be a prize-grabbing Banner Day entrant, but you never know who you’re going to wind up rooting for when fall baseball goes on without your direct participation. Let’s just say the New York Liberty had a wonderful ticker-tape parade recently, and I saw no reason for anybody to immediately follow in their confettied tire tracks.

As bases went uncovered, balls clanked off gloves, and fans were escorted out by security, thoughts turned to the National League Runners-Up. This was the third time the senior circuit representative’s road to ultimate reward ran through the New York Mets via the NLCS. The Dodgers in 1988. The Cardinals in 2006. The Dodgers in 2024. I ostentatiously avoided most of those first two World Series. That should be us there, not them. This time, I was less allergic from that standpoint. Maybe because the Series That Was started in Dodger Stadium and the Series That Could Have Been would have started in Yankee Stadium, I didn’t stare out at Game One introductions and mentally insert our guys on the field. We would have hosted Games Three, Four and, if we hadn’t swept, Five. Hypotheticals didn’t tempt me much. After the way we got clobbered in our four losses to L.A., I wasn’t telling myself the worthiest team didn’t win.

When the World Series was over, of course I was delighted by the outcome locally, but I also didn’t mind who was putting on the commemorative t-shirts. The Dodgers loaded up in the offseason, withstood a torrent of injuries, showed themselves to be better and better with each round, and no longer include Chase Utley in their ranks. Instead of that could have been us, I believed after the final out of 2024, that can BE us, as in 2025. I haven’t felt so enthusiastic on our behalf watching somebody else celebrate in a long time.

Maybe that’s the real treat to take away from this postseason. In the meantime, grab yourself another Snickers. Or just snicker.

Now Leaving the Montage

And yet, it felt fantastical. I wasn’t entirely sure the road I walked was even there anymore. And even if it were there as the map said, and even if I went to walk it again on another day, another season, maybe in a different pair of shoes, it wouldn’t be the same road. I had found a proper seam at the start of that one spring and had slipped into it. The road I walked was there on that one day. Other roads and other seams await. But that road is no longer there.
Neil King, Jr., American Ramble

I hope to someday awake from a dream postseason to find the dream reached its optimal conclusion, and that my first thought come daybreak is, “I’m really gonna have to get rolling if I wanna make that parade.” Such a morning hasn’t happened for the longest time. Instead, I follow a pattern I inadvertently established a quarter-century ago this week and have repeated as applicable.

The Mets’ valiant attempt to attain a championship lands shy of its goal.

I stew for several wee hours.

I nod off jarred by the reality that has set in.

I rise sleepily to confirm that, after weeks/months spent navigating the edge of heaven, joy has morphed to void.

Postseason has become offseason.

The Mets of this year are, at once, the Mets of last year.

No matter how great it all was — and in the part of 2024 we shall recall as “2024,” all but four miserable NLCS losses of it was great — it ends. The siren song of possibility was extremely loud. The sense of ultimate reward was incredibly close. These opportunities have proven intermittent over the past 25 years. How can the absolute most not be made of them? At minimum, another game should await. At maximum, paper shredders should be revving on our team’s behalf in the office buildings of Lower Broadway a couple of weeks hence to ensure an adequate supply of ticker tape. Instead, there’s no game the next night or any night soon, and we’ll have to wait for another collection of Mets to have garbage thrown out of windows at them with adoration. Another opportunity has gone by the boards, and another inadvertently established pattern takes hold. In our virtual councils, we pat one another on the back. In real life, we graciously accept well-meaning pats on the heads from those outside our immediate sphere of interest. Everywhere, we necessarily move on from what we perceive as a Met job well done, if not thoroughly completed.

After living in a veritable highlight reel for nearly two months, leaving it is a drag. The first day realizing that the montage won’t be added to is inevitably cold and barren, even if we are convinced that inside we should be feeling warm all over. On the Monday after the Sunday that ended the 2024 Mets’ ride through euphoria, I mustered the wherewithal to peer over the horizon toward conceivably happier endings. Maybe, I told myself, we’re the 2015 Cubs, who we were chuffed to watch get swept by the 2015 Mets in that year’s NLCS. Those Cubs didn’t reach a conclusion. They had finished only their prelude to the world championship they went on to capture in 2016. That’s a template I can envision bridging the disappointment I’m sorting through presently and the celebration I seek eventually.

Still, I take my cues from Francisco Lindor. I look at Lindor the way Mr. Thomson, Secretary of the Continental Congress, looked at George Washington in 1776. John Adams wondered whether this man Thomson, whose responsibilities in the movie consisted of calling the roll and reading aloud dispatches delivered from the front, stood with the pro- or anti-independence forces in Congress. “I stand with the General,” Thomson replied. When Adams found this response unsatisfactory, Thomson explained, as he unfurled another military missive from G. Washington, “Well, lately, I’ve had the oddest feeling that he’s been writing to me.” Lindor blasted a grand slam that effectively clinched the Division Series, yet treated his trip around the bases as if it were just another drill in Port St. Lucie: head down; one foot placed in front of the other at a brisk and steady tempo; every base and then home plate touched; priority shifting from offense to defense upon the recording of the third out. Taking a 4-1 lead in the sixth inning and simultaneously dealing a death blow to the Phillies’ chances wasn’t Lindor’s mission. Winning the World Series was. Six games versus Los Angeles later, it still is.

Mine, too. It wasn’t something I considered within reach when 2024 commenced, but there it was, two handfuls of wins away. Too close for consolation pats. I think that’s why I valued our MVP’s trot as much as his blast. So when Lindor was asked, following the Mets’ elimination, if he considered the organization well-positioned to maintain the level to which the club had surprisingly ascended this fall, he expressed positivity, though added quickly, “Nothing’s promised in this game.” He repeated the phrase twice more, and a moment later reminded reporters, “Every year, whether you have the same guys or not, it’s a different year.”

I stand with the shortstop.

He’ll be back. Many if not all of the Mets with whom we made common cause will return, too. Some won’t. We’ll know who’s not here anymore by the way the montages are edited for 2025 viewing. Lindor’s myriad dramatic hits will be included, as will those stroked by Brandon Nimmo and Mark Vientos. Nimmo, like Lindor, is under contract for years to come. Vientos is under team control and won’t be going anywhere, except perhaps across the infield, depending on whether the incumbent first baseman who homered four times in the postseason is afflicted by lucrative wanderlust.

I sure hope Pete Alonso stays. Maybe there can be another postseason without him. It won’t be as awesome a party. Same for the several other key Mets who will file for free agency. You can’t keep everybody, and our discerning president of baseball operations understands that you probably shouldn’t. Nevertheless, who wants to bid adieu to Alonso, Manaea, Severino, Quintana, Iglesias, Winker and whoever else imprinted themselves on our souls over the past few months? Who would ever want what we had going in 2024 to end? Besides the Dodgers, I mean?

It was gonna end sooner or later. It could have ended better. It couldn’t have proceeded with a whole lot more elation. That’s what’s beginning to fill the void for me as the second day of the offseason that used to be the postseason prepares to dawn. This oughta be a time for revel rather than regret. That reel we lived in contained the highest of highlights. Close your eyes and watch them on a loop. You won’t be sorry.

A discussion of how the Mets’ postseason ended and why the end hardly defines the whole is up at National League Town.

The Summer of Smiles

The Mets lost, and their season is over.

Sean Manaea didn’t have his putaway stuff, Phil Maton looked gassed, and Kodai Senga turned in one good inning but not a second. Meanwhile, the hitters worked solid ABs and kept creating traffic, but couldn’t get the big hit they needed: They were 2 for 9 with runners in scoring position, and left 13 men on base. And — because it’s not always about us — the Dodgers were relentless and effective, with a new fearsome hitter popping up for every formidable one a Mets pitcher dispatched. The Dodgers beat us; they earned their pennant and the opportunity to renew their ancient grudge match against the Yankees.

Emily and I are in Tacoma visiting the kid, a trip put on the calendar before anyone could imagine our rocket ride through Atlanta and Milwaukee and Philadelphia and L.A. The three of us wound up watching in a bar in our hotel, without sound (not a big deal as I’ve heard enough John Smoltz for a lifetime), while everyone else around us was fixated on Jets-Steelers.

It wasn’t the strangest arrangement of the series: I watched Game 5 on the plane from JFK to SEA, relying on my laptop, MLB.tv and Delta’s Wifi. (The seatback TV’s lineup of live channels didn’t include FS1.) Occasionally I was watching in full HD; most of the time the feed was blurry and blocky; multiple times it failed entirely, including with two outs in the ninth. Fortunately the Mets had a reasonably comfortable lead at that point, meaning I was only seriously agitated by having to wait 15 minutes for the Wifi to come back so I could find out what had happened. If the game had been in the balance, I suspect an air marshal would have wound up writing up an incident report.

Emily and I would have watched Game 7 the same way, probably with the same obstacles. There’s the tiniest of silver linings, I suppose. Well, that and the fact that I’ll fly back to New York wearing clean clothes — the lucky 7 Line jersey and Mookie shirt were getting a little suspect.

The Mets are done. We’ll have more to say about that in the days and weeks ahead. But right now I know this much: This team will be loved. Loved, and remembered fondly, and cherished years from now.

Playing October baseball doesn’t guarantee such fond remembrances: The chilly, vaguely misaligned ’88 Mets aren’t loved despite their many ’86 alumni; the ’22 Mets’ season-ending fizzle and quick exit ensured we’d rather not talk about them. And failing to secure a title doesn’t consign a team to also-ran status: The ’99 and ’15 Mets fell short but will be source of joy as long as there are Mets seasons to chronicle.

So it will be with this team, the Mets of Grimace and OMG and “My Girl” and Zesty Mets celebrations, the Mets of unlikely resurrections and unforeseen comebacks. They gave us a magical summer and a joyous fall. Did we want a little more than we got? Of course we did. But I will always think back on what we did get and smile.

Thank you, Mets, from the bottom of this fan’s orange and blue heart.

The Seventh Game Six

Twice, they’ve been intended to wrap things up; once, that worked. Four times, they’ve been meant to stave off an ending; that purpose was served thrice. Now, the seventh time. We’re striving for staving.

Welcome to the two most underrated words in sports: Game Six. Game Seven gets all the laurels before it becomes necessary. Quite understandable, though the fuss over a Game Seven reminds of Fonzie (Henry Winkler, not Edgardo Alfonzo) explaining to Richie Cunningham on Happy Days why he didn’t bother going out on Saturday nights: “I like to stay home on amateur night.” Judging by the Nielsens, Game Seven attracts the lookie-loos. The networks love Game Seven. Game Six can be the emotional pinnacle for those of us who’ve been tuned in since Opening Day and lived and died the Full 162 and then some. Game Six is something you couldn’t have imagined, can’t take for granted.

That’s where we are.

The first Mets Game Six was supposed to be a wrapper-upper. The Mets led the A’s three games to two in the 1973 World Series. We couldn’t have imagined any of it, not when we were in last place on August 30, not when Dave Augustine hit that ball that was surely going out, not when rain soaked Chicago for consecutive days at the end of the schedule, not when the Big Red Machine got to chugging. Not, for that matter, when mighty Oakland made off with Games One and Three by a run apiece. Yet here we were, in the sunny Coliseum, one Tom Seaver start from our second world championship. Somehow, Seaver — and his opposite number Catfish Hunter — are reduced to asterisk status in the regretful retellings of the first Mets Game Six. It usually boils down to a pitcher the visiting manager didn’t use. Maybe a Stone’s throw would have made all the difference. As was, Seaver gave up a pair of runs over seven innings, with Tug McGraw allowing another in the eighth. Catfish, as much a legend as Tug and ever bit the Hall of Famer Tom was, scattered four hits in seven-and-a-third of one-run ball. The omnipresent Darold Knowles and the Cooperstown-bound Rollie Fingers finished up. A’s 3 Mets 1. There’d be no wrap on the Series that day. There’d be a rap on Yogi forever after.

The second Mets Game Six did wrap things up. Not nice and tidy, but whaddaya want after sixteen innings fueled by an intense desire to not face Mike Scott the next day? 1986 National League Champion Mets 7, 1986 National League Runner-Up Astros 6. No matter what happens in L.A. tonight, the 1986 National League Championship Series remains for the foreseeable future the only postseason series the Mets have ever taken in six. Of all the Mets Game Sixes, this, to the Metsnoscenti, can be referred to as simply “Game Six,” and everybody in earshot oughta know which one you mean.

No real argument.

Unless you mean the third Mets Game Six, which was also a doozy. The other team was the one looking to put a wrap on the matter at hand. If there’s a Game Six, somebody is one game from clinching. In the 1986 World Series, it was the Red Sox, up three games to two, not to mention up five runs to three with two out and nobody on in the bottom of the tenth, Gary Carter coming to the plate. This is the Levy’s Rye Bread of Game Sixes: you don’t need to be a Mets fan to know it (though it helps if you want to love it). They even made a movie out of this Game Six. It wasn’t a good movie, but the real-life footage of Mets 6 Red Sox 5 will always be timeless.

Real life was better.

The fourth Mets Game Six did its job. It staved off elimination. I’m comfortable in asserting that “nobody” talks about it or remembers it. Of course some people don’t have selective amnesia, but when the 1988 National League Championship Series stirs conversation, it’s rarely to revel in recalling the 4-for-4 performance of Kevin McReynolds that included a homer and three RBIs, or the way David Cone redeemed his idiotic ghostwritten column by going the distance (a.k.a. nine innings, lest you not believe such pitching stamina is impossible) in defeating the Dodgers, 5-1. It happened. You can look it up. Actually, you don’t have to. I just told you about it. You can go back to spitting at the thought of Mike Scioscia now.

The fifth Mets Game Six was a Viking funeral for a saga of a season that could be properly laid to rest only by setting it ablaze at sea. That’s what Braves 10 Mets 9 slamming shut the 1999 National League Championship Series felt like to me. It’s still the grippingest Mets game I’ve ever experienced, and that includes the aforementioned “Game Six”. I was crushed and I was elevated. Even the Game Sixes that get a little lost to the mists of time can do that.

The sixth Mets Game Six, and the most recent, started with a bang in the form of a Jose Reyes leadoff home run. Who doesn’t like a tone being set? The Mets needed to win this Game Six if they wanted a Game Seven in the 2006 National League Championship Series. They built a 4-0 lead, they carried it to the ninth, and Billy Wagner, bless his heart, gave half of it back. Whoever bought the red Shea Stadium seat I sunk into at the instant of the final out of Mets 4 Cardinals 2 probably wonders what that residue they can’t quite scrub clean is from. It’s from the portions of my soul that seeped out of my body as Wagner made the game we needed closer and closer and closer. That’s why they call them closers. John Franco came out to wave a towel prior to Game Four of the 2024 NLCS, and I was delighted to see him, because it wasn’t a late inning in some year when Franco was a Met. I know Franco piled up tons of saves. I know Wagner piled up tons of saves. I know Franco and Wagner are two of the best lefty closers ever. I’ll applaud Billy should he make the Hall this January. I think Johnny deserved a closer look. But Jesus H. Alou, does every outstanding Met closer have to be the way they are — close your ears, Edwin — especially in a Game Six? Franco gave up a crucial run in 1999’s. Armando Benitez did the same. As for Wagner, he never saw action in Game Seven of the 2006 NLCS. And no Shea Stadium seat can claim to be 2006 World Series-used.

So there you have it. Six Game Sixes thus far. Four Mets wins. Two Mets non-wins. In the seventh Game Six, only one result is an option. When we get it, we’ll invite the lookie-loos over for Game Seven, no hesitation.

But first, Game Six.

The Way They Do the Things They Do

Thursday night I came home from Game Four of the National League Championship Series resigned to the 2024 Mets season being imminently over. Friday morning I awoke thinking only that there’d be a baseball game come late afternoon and that the Mets would be playing in it, and between the regular season and the postseason, the Mets had won ballgames 95 times this year, so it wouldn’t be a stretch to believe they might win another. I didn’t stress about it. I didn’t worry over the odds of coming back from down three-one. I didn’t shrink at the specter of Ohtani and Betts and Muncy (oh my). I just knew the Mets would be playin’ some ball, and that the Mets have some pretty good ballplayers, and, well…play ball!

So the Mets did. They played the hell out of ball in Game Five, hitting balls particularly hard and in a timely fashion, while their pitchers stopped throwing quite so many balls. It all added up to a glorious chorus of “Stayin’ Alive,” which you could hear in the echoes of “My Girl,” which was actually performed live by the Temptations pregame. “My Girl” was for Francisco Lindor, who doesn’t come to bat without the song’s first verse echoing through Citi Field. “Stayin’ Alive” was the mission.

Mission accomplished. For Game Five, that is. The temptation is to look beyond the Mets’ 12-6 throttling of the Dodgers — is it possible for a score to simultaneously not indicate how close and not close a game was? — and think about what it will take to win the next two contests and therefore the pennant. Tamp down that temptation. The next mission is Game Six and Game Six solely. Peer too far ahead and you’re standing on shaky ground.

But we ain’t too proud to beg for a whole lot more of what kept us alive in Game Five.

Pete Alonso, in his third final-ever game as a Met at Citi Field, changed the tenor of this NLCS in one mighty swing, golfing a Jack Flaherty pitch to the western edge of the 7 Line Army seats, where the night before, I can personally attest, it grew chilly and hopeless. Francisco digs the Temps. Pete raises the temperature. Two Mets had been on when Alonso attacked, meaning the Met lead was 3-0. The message to Dave Roberts, regarding his starting pitcher who stymied us in Game One, was (and I’m borrowing this Karl Ehrhardt-worthy line from author Michael Elias) Flaherty will get you nowhere.

Go back, Jack, and do it again, the Mets lineup had to be thinking. The second inning saw a leadoff double from Francisco Alvarez wasted, except for the notion that Alvy was suddenly off the schneid, but the third crumbled Dodger pitching in Sensurround. Flaherty walked his first two batters, proving that it’s not only Mets pitchers who do that. Starling Marte, very much living up to his first name’s first syllable, doubled both runners home, and it was off to the Met races. With two outs, there was an Alvy single, a Lindor triple, a Brandon Nimmo base hit, and an 8-1 Met lead lighting up the Citi scoreboard. Yeah, the Dodgers had snuck a run up there off recurring lifesaver David Peterson in the second, but who was worried about the Dodgers when the Mets were ahead, 8-1?

Everybody, obviously. Have you seen these Dodgers? I saw them with my own eyes in Game Four and I considered looking away. Geez, they’re dangerous. For two nights, they were Murderer’s Row taking batting practice in-game, and the Mets might as well have been the 1927 Pirates calling it a day, per legend, before a single pitch was thrown in competition. Except we know the 2024 Mets are not a give-up crew. Maybe they wouldn’t be a champion crew, but they weren’t going to go down without a fight.

Nor would the Dodgers. They indeed got to Peterson enough to rattle Carlos Mendoza’s nerves sufficiently to call on Reed Garrett to protect what was now an 8-2 lead in the fourth. But then Jesse Winker added an RBI triple to the one Lindor hit the inning before (because triples are just that easily come by), and good ol’ Mets fan favorite Jesse got driven in by the blessedly active Jeff McNeil. Winker and McNeil replaced J.D. Martinez and Jose Iglesias in Mendoza’s lineup once Mendy remembered Jeff and Jesse are his guys, too. Gotta love an adaptable skipper.

Garrett now had an eight-run lead to safeguard, until it was a five-run lead, courtesy of Andy Pages’s second home run of the game. Pages was L.A.’s nine-hitter. If their last batter can swat two home runs, I’d hate to see who they have batting first.

Oh right, Ohtani. Mendoza knew that and brought in Ryne Stanek to strike out Shohei to end the fifth. Excellent plan.

Stanek, more or less the Mets’ primary setup man, stayed into the sixth, which started nervously with a Mookie Betts homer, but then settled down via three quick outs and not a single base on balls. Peterson had walked four and Garrett one, but the bullpen was now out of the carousel business. It made a world of difference. From a throat-clearing advantage of 10-6, McNeil contributed his second sac fly of the day to provide an extra firm cushion, and, in the eighth, Marte’s fourth hit brought home the Mets’ twelfth run. By then, Edwin Diaz was in the midst of succeeding Stanek’s two-and-a-third of scoreless ball with two superbly effective frames of his own, and, yes, the Mets were alive. Certainly not dead yet.

Big change from the night before when I felt compelled to wake my wife around one in the morning and debrief her on the somber scene at Citi. Yes, it was fun for many reasons, and I was delighted to get the call from Jason to join him in the center field orange grove — and thanks to not-my-first-rodeo layering, I didn’t even shiver very much — but yeesh. The joint was half-empty when it was over, and who could blame the Mets fans who didn’t want to push midnight just to take in every last inch of a 10-2 debacle that had pushed us to the brink of elimination? At least their departure made the diehard trudge to the subway a breeze.

Anyway, that, along with every trip to the edge of every 2024 abyss, feels distant in the wake of Game Five, a Game Five that now precedes a very necessary Game Six. The way the Mets do the things they do might eventually end us. But they also keep us going.

A Long Walk

With the Mets batting because they had to in the eighth inning of Thursday night’s game, I got out of my seat at Citi Field and took a walk.

The immediate reason was straightforward, but there were other reasons, too. My feet were cold. My legs were stiff. I was upset. And I knew that for various reasons it was unlikely that I’d see Citi Field again in 2024.

I wound up circumnavigating the lower level, going from my seat with the 7 Line low down in 141 past the postseason Fox pavilion and over the Shea Bridge, along the first-base line around to the top of the rotunda, up the third-base line, then through the plaza of eateries and back to my seat. Five innings earlier that would have been a foolhardy mission guaranteed to chew up multiple innings. But now it was easy: Most of the crowd had departed, leaving behind Dodger visitors and Met diehards. It reminded me of a meaningless game in May, one that hadn’t drawn too many people in the first place because it was a little cold and had seen the attendance diminish from that low base because things weren’t going the Mets’ way.

If that sounds like a terrible comparison to wind up making in Game 4 of the National League Championship Series, well, you’re right in some ways and not in others.

The Mets had fallen behind as early as one can on a leadoff line-drive home run from Shohei Ohtani, but tied the game in their half of the first when Mark Vientos cracked a homer of his own off Yoshinobu Yamamoto. But the Dodgers got two more in the third and kept battering away at Jose Quintana and the Mets pen; by the time I took my walk they were up 10-2 and Danny Young was on the mound, left to absorb whatever further harm L.A. had to administer.

As fans our natural inclination is to see losses as failures. The sports-talk radio version is to filibuster about desire and will; the sophisticate’s version is to spotlight various guys on our side who didn’t get it done for various reasons to be explored via analysis. The former is straightforwardly stupid; the latter looks smart but is often misguided.

Out in center field in the 7 Line’s orange domain, there was muttering that Quintana was being squeezed. I couldn’t tell from ~450 feet away, where I was sitting between my father-in-law and Greg (our first game together since last June), but between innings I peered at previous Dodger ABs on Gameday and found no obvious signs of injustice.

What was happening was more telling: Quintana succeeds by not throwing strikes, with his pitches darting or drifting out of the confines of the zone with hitters enticed to follow, leading to swings and misses and weak contact. That worked against the Brewers and Phillies but not against the Dodgers: They refused to expand the zone, either taking free bases or forcing Quintana to relocate those pitches to where they could be squared up.

Calling that a failure of Quintana’s is a stretch; it’s far fairer to give credit to the Dodgers. Ohtani, Mookie Betts and Tommy Edman all had big nights, while Max Muncy set a postseason record by reaching base in 12 straight plate appearances before Young finally (and mercifully) retired him in the eighth. Watching the Dodgers’ relentless lineup reminded me of watching the Mets during their joyous summer run: AB after AB driving up pitch counts and squeezing out an enemy pitcher’s margin for error until the breakthrough felt inevitable.

A few Mets heard it from the crowd, most notably J.D. Martinez, but that was mostly frustration needing an outlet. The team looks tired, and understandably so — I’m exhausted and all I’ve done is watch them. And the nagging injuries look like they’re piling up: Brandon Nimmo literally limped through the evening and delivered one of the Mets’ two runs by beating out the tail end of a double play on basically one foot, which is the kind of thing that will get lost amid bigger storylines but shouldn’t.

But again, turn that around: The Dodgers squeaked past the Padres nagged by worries about their starting pitching, which is in tatters after the kind of season that called for a MASH unit. They’re on the brink of the World Series because of that relentless lineup but also because they’ve had three suspect pitchers — Jack Flaherty, Walker Buehler and now Yamamoto — come up big.

The TLDR of the above, offered by Greg in an aside that was gloomy but clear-eyed: Maybe they’re just better.

All of this was competing for space in my brain when I took my walk. I stopped for a moment in the plaza beyond the home run apple, looking up at the frieze above Shake Shack and remembering it in its old place atop the scoreboard at Shea. (Its reclamation was one of the few things we agreed the Mets had got right while Citi Field was in the growing pains of its first few seasons.)

Those Mets had been on my mind all night, partly because Robin Ventura and Edgardo Alfonzo had returned for the first pitch and John Franco had led a pregame hollering of LET’S GO METS. But looking up at the old frieze with its remembrance pin over the outline of the World Trade Center, I realized I wasn’t disparaging the 2024 Mets by comparison. I found I wasn’t angry at them, or dismayed at seeing their season shoved to the brink. All of a sudden it really did feel like a May game, one that hadn’t unfolded the way you wanted but still meant a night at the ballpark, which always feels like getting away with something.

I know myself well enough to grasp that some of my acceptance is me trying to outfox the baseball gods: During my walk a fan yelled “Mets in seven!” to no one in particular and I smiled and thought, “Well, why not?” And some of it is stubborn faith in how often this edition of the Mets has delivered a surprise; on the subway I nodded at Francisco Lindor‘s postgame declaration that “if you have no belief, you shouldn’t be here.”

I won’t be there Friday afternoon — not with the 7 Line, and not on my couch. I’ll be on an airplane heading for Seattle, investigating seatback channel options and hoping I don’t have to spring for in-flight Wi-Fi. But if I have to, I will — and you better believe I’ll be wearing my Mookie shirt under my 7 Line jersey, with Derpy Flag in my lap and talismanic utterances on my lips.

In other words, I’ll be there in the way we always are, in the way that matters. There’s clear-eyed assessment of one’s chances and there’s belief. I’ve got room for both.