I mean, sometimes it’s joy. A lot of times it’s joy, in fact.
But sometimes it isn’t.
Take, for instance, Wednesday afternoon in Milwaukee, which certainly did not count as joy.
I guess you could make a case that it was better than losing 10-zip on Monday, and superior to losing 9-0 on Tuesday. On Wednesday the Mets a) scored actual runs; b) scored six of them, in fact; c) held a lead, an aspect of baseball we’d forgotten existed for a while there; and d) actually held two of those mysterious things called leads.
None of which mattered in the end, as Garrett Mitchell [1] — who’d just been foiled in attempting to bunt his way aboard, for Chrissakes — smacked an errant Adam Ottavino [2] frisbee into the right-field seats for a walkoff 7-6 Brewers win.
Pain. On so many levels.
The pain of losing to start off the ninth without recording an out, which shouldn’t feel worse but somehow does — like getting walked off in the eighth with an asterisk. Nobody tell Rob Manfred or that will somehow be a thing by Memorial Day.
The pain of a three-game sweep, which is never fun even when you’re not outscored by nearly three touchdowns.
The pain of seeing a long streak of being .500 or better [3] go by the boards.
The pain of getting steamrolled by a team that could do no wrong right after having your way with lesser competition, with all the discombobulation to one’s self-image and creeping existential doubt that brought with it.
The pain of confronting that oldest and bitterest of baseball questions: If your team’s fated to lose, would you prefer that they lose meekly and pitifully from the jump, or horribly and tragically at the very end [4]? (There is no right answer. In fact, there is no answer. To this, or anything else.)
The Mets lost, and it was pain. Pain watching David Peterson [5] walk the ballpark and Drew Smith [6] report for duty to discover the mound was so fucked up nobody could do anything from it. Pain handling Corbin Burnes [7] just fine only to have it not matter. Pain feeling like the outcome was preordained even after storming back to take a 6-4 lead on the second of two Pete Alonso [8] homers. This was the kind of game where you shove yourself into the mud face-first, like a doughboy getting shelled in a trench, and pray that you’ll find yourself alive when the bombs stop gouging the earth while doubting you’ll be so lucky.
The Mets are already rained out for their home opener, a development that elicited a sigh of relief from me, because this is definitely a team that could use a day not playing baseball or, more accurately, not attempting the kind of baseball-adjacent activities that have been inflicted on us the last three days.
Being glad your team isn’t playing when baseball just returned to being part of the daily routine? Yep. Like I said: pain.